Do You Feel Like You're Not Good Enough?
Written by Amanda Hawkins
There are times when a woman who tries to be a Godly woman, and fails occasionally, becomes very self conscious, and sorrowful. She may feel as if she is not a good enough wife, or that she is not fulfilling her purpose. It is no fault of the husband, because he patiently assures her that she is a great wife, and that she does well. But the woman feels a sort of pain because she knows she can do better to serve the Lord, yet she doesn't feel good enough.
"Examine yourselves, whether ye be in the faith; prove your own selves. Know ye not your own selves, how that Jesus Christ is in you, except ye be reprobates?" -- 2 Corinthians 13:5
It is good to examine yourself, but thinking of yourself as a failure, and constantly considering yourself not good enough, is not good, and is something that you should examine in yourself. Do you see yourself this way at times?
There is a difference between, 1, knowing that you are not worthy of God, and 2, never feeling good enough for God. The first one, is good because it allows us to realize God's power and glory and grace, that even though He is holy, He still forgives us and gives us eternal life. The second thought is self destructive, because it leads you to believe that nothing you ever do will please God, which is not true.
This is something that in the past I have struggled with, and my husband has helped me work through it. My husband helped me to realize that I am a daughter of the Lord, and that I constantly seek ways to serve God and my husband. There are times I feel selfish, or times I don't do as I know would please the Lord, or I hold onto a grudge for a little too long, but we all make mistakes because we are not perfect, which is why we need God. All we have to do is repent, and if we are truly trying, the Lord forgives and continues to help build us up.
Don't lose the faith, don't feel like you have broken a promise to yourself or God, and don't feel like you have failed. Just keep trying. Keep striving to do well for the Lord. Keep fulfilling your purpose as a wife, and as a Christian. If you falter once in a while even though you were trying not to, don't beat yourself up; pray about it, and get up and try again.
It is not easy to live the life of a true Christian. You constantly battle with yourself. You battle with your flesh and sin. Your flesh tells you to be angry with your husband over a stupid argument you had at the store. Your flesh tells you to be bitter about it for the rest of the night, to make him see how you feel. But God, is pulling the strings of your heart telling you to pray about it, gain your composure, and forgive your husband. God tells you to lay it down at his feet, all your anger, and sin, and bitterness. It's not always easy. And sometimes when we struggle with it all the time, it makes us feel like we can never get it right, but the fact is, we can't get it right, ever, without God. The most important thing is staying close to God. Staying fervent in prayer and in faith, examining yourself, and asking God to help you in areas that you know you need help, and in ares that you are uncertain.
I pray that this post helped you to see that you have worth to the Lord, and that He is forgiving, even when you have a hard time forgiving yourself.
Peace be with you, in the name of Jesus Christ.